If I knew then what I know now

 

　 If I knew then that I study at Tsukuba University now, I wouldn’t have been so troubled.

Actually, I had studied to enter other university with my friend before I realized what I really wanted to do.

 I didn’t know what I wanted to study at the university and what I wanted to do in the future. So my teacher recommended me to study to enter the other university and I started to study. My teachers game me more difficult questions than questions we solves in the normal classes or as homework. I had to study more than other students in my class because the university was hard to enter.

A few months later, I knew that my friend studied to enter the same university, too. I became happy to know that because I had thought I had to study alone before then. I started to study with him. Teachers gave problems to us, we tried them, and we went to teachers’ room to be taught how to solve them many times. He was very hardworking unlike me. I often thought “I must study hard like him!” But, I knew that his situation was the same as mine. He didn’t know what he wanted to do in the future. I admired him because he studied very hard without any goal.

 

When I became a high school senior, I hadn’t decided what I want to study at the university and what university I should go to yet. I was troubled by deciding what to do in the future. So I continued studying with him to enter the university my teacher recommended.

But I didn’t like to study and I had little time to try difficult questions in addition to everyday homework as I was busy with the club activity. I didn’t want to go to the university in some reasons, so I got tired of studying for the university. I often thought and said to him “Why I have to study so hard to enter the university I didn’t want to go to!” I should have quit studying for the university then, but I continued studying with him because I knew how lonely studying alone was and I didn’t want him to study alone.

 

One day, however, I quarreled with him. I decided to quit studying for the university with him. I really didn’t want to go to and study for the university.

Then, I happened to find the Department of Social Engineering at Tsukuba University! When I accidentally read the explanation what we can study in this department, I thought “This is very what I want to do! I want to study here!” I was surprised and glad to find what I want to do! I now think this was destiny.

 

Now, I am in Tsukuba University, and to my surprise, my friend I studied with is also in this university! He is still my best friend. I am very happy to study what I want to do!

 

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